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| The letter from me to my best friend ("Jay"): | The letter from Jay to me: | ||||||||||||||||
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What would you say to you, me and Dana hanging out sometime this week? Thursday night? There's a band playing that I think you guys might like at 11 p.m. in the Crooked Bar. LET ME KNOW, CHICKEN BUTT...LIE TO "J." AND TELL HER YOU AND OSCAR ARE GOING TO A GAY STRIP CLUB IF IT MAKES HER HAPPY! leez |
Uh ... "J." was in the room when I was on-line and she saw your letter. She just ran out screaming at me. I wouldn't be surprised if she called you. Sorry. ~Jay | ||||||||||||||||
| The letter from "J." (the g/f) to me: | |||||||||||||||||
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From: *****@webtv.net (J***** ********) To: sxychkn638@aol.com It's taken me 2 days to calm down enough to send you this. I've talked myself out of ripping into you and/or calling you a Bitch..I don't think that's gonna accomplish anything but hopefully what I have to say will at least let you know where I am comming from. As I am sure you know, I read the E-mail you sent Jay asking him to go to a club with you and Dana...and everything that followed. First off, don't think I'm a snoop who sneeks into Jay's E-mail....we have a small apartment and I often read over his shoulder. I was crushed by your comment re; having him lie to me if I wouldn't let him go. You should understand and see things as I see them for just a sec. At some point after the whole "go to AAA and then go get lunch" thing you stopped being friendly towards me...you even act like some snob who doesn't need to stoop to my level or give me the time of day. Granted...your not my friend you are Jay's..I also realize and I have not always been on good terms with Jay, and as all friends do, I'm sure he shared the worst parts of our break-ups with you which might change your view of me. Maybe I did something the day we were out together to anoy you or maybe we just didn't "click"..All I know is that I am at a loss to why you still can be so unkind to me now that things between Jay and I are different. Trust me...don't take this the wrong way...I have no desire to be your friend now or ever for that matter. I would never ask my friend to lie to his girlfriend so he could "be allowed" to hang out with me...Jay and I have a relationship based on trust...as most friends do. I don't like the way you treat your "friends". You know Jay loves me..the least you could do is respect our relationship....as his "friend". Out of all Jay's friends, you are the only one whom I have a problem with....and in turn you seem to have a problem with me. Maybe if you wouldn't give me the cold shoulder all the time or act as if I am not even in the room the past several times the three of us, Jay,you and I, have tried to do things together, I wouldn't think you were so stuck up and it would be easier for me "to allow" him to hang out with you. But your actions show me you have other intentions towards the man that I love and that of course creates jealousy on my part. He told me that you had a crush on him and later he in turn had a crush on you..this only adds to the fire..something that never "panned out" as he put's it. Jay and I have no other plans other than to share a lifetime together and if you think we won't stay together your just dumb. Or maybe your smarter than I give you credit for because YOU would be the only reason he and I split up. I can't deal with Jay going out with you because you are to good to talk to me...I am never invited to attend your little "outings" so why should I trust that your intentions are good? Why did you think that Jay would lie to me to go out with you anyway? Get over yourself. Not only that...since Jay and I plan on staying together you either need to fade out of the picture or learn to deal with me...you can't avoid me forever...I can only make it difficult/impossible for you to ever go out with your prescios friend Jay. My bitterness is more than obvious as I am sure you noticed by now. The bitterness is derived from hurt. I have done nothing to you. I have tried on more than one occassion to talk to you and/or at least be courteous to you. I'm sorry if you have ill feelings towards me because Jason and you have grown apart because of me. Oh well...that's the price you pay for blowing me off. I don't expect you to reply to this letter...I also don't expect some miraculous change between us to occur, or your attitude to change towards me. I am just sick of the tention between us and your letter provoked me to write and let you know my piont of view. J. | |||||||||||||||||
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J., I have only ever had a problem with you because of the things I have heard Jay tell me you said about me. I know I don't go out of my way to be nice to you, but that is because I honestly do not want someone who I am nice to to go and talk badly about me behind my back. I don't go out of my way to talk to anyone, and it's not because I am a snob, but because I am afraid of being hurt. This probably sounds like bullshit to you, but it's the truth. At any rate, I know that I have never done anything to warrant your hatred of me. I don't plan on it, either. The comment I made to Jay in that e-mail was a joke -- unfortunately, it's hard to hear tone of voice in an e-mail. I'm trying to be good-natured about this whole thing of us not being able to hang out any more because of you, even though I am really upset by it (a fact I'm sure will make you happy.) I realize Jay would never lie to you, which is what makes him such a valuable and worthwhile person. I just want to hang out with him. I miss him. He's my best friend and I haven't even been allowed to talk to him for the past few months because you told him he wasn't allowed to talk to me, or because he would rather keep me out of his life than rile up your anger. (If this comes from a relationship based on trust, then you obviously don't trust him.) One thing I always wanted to tell you, but didn't feel comfortable enough with you to say, is that I have NEVER had any sort of crush on Jay. I'm not attracted to him at all. I love him /very/ dearly, but only as a friend. No matter what girl Jay happened to be dating, and no matter how I felt about her, or vice versa, I would NEVER go and break the relationship up because I have my own plans for him. He's my friend, and that's all he ever will be. You can let him read this if you want, because he knows it already. You have never done anything to annoy me...at least not to my face. All you have done which might warrant my not wanting to talk to you is calling me names behind my back ... calling me a princess, writing in your diary that you wished I was dead. I wish I knew what I did to make you hate me, because it drives me nuts. I'm honestly not too crazy about you because of the ways you've treated Jay in the past, as well as the way you've dismissed my worth as a human being ONLY because of your jealousy and not because of actual concrete evidence. You should know, though, there is absolutely nothing to be jealous of. So anyway, I'm sure even though I have written this letter you will still have your suspicions and will be unhappy if Jay and I ever hang out. I'm sure you don't want to hang out with me, and that's the main reason I don't invite you. I know Jay used to tell you you were welcome any time we were going to hang out, and that was the truth. But you weren't at all interested in my company; you only wanted to come along so you could watch over him. Again, this is not trust. At any rate, it is ultimately Jay's choice to be with you and to dumb down his friendship with me, and all I can do is accept that. I never thought I was better than you, J. I never hated you and I still don't. I hope you treat Jay with the respect and kindness he deserves. It saddens me that you only want to keep me from hanging with Jay because you think I am some sort of witch that wants to take over and/or tear you apart. The truth is that I only want Jason to be happy, which is why I haven't ever said anything mean to you, even when you were breaking his heart. Liz (All names except mine changed to protect the innocent and the not-so-innocent.) | |||||||||||||||||
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